Monthly Archives: April 2014



Something MORE was calling me to go on beyond all the beliefs  I had. Something MORE was telling me that any religious faith was just one stop on the trip. It didn’t end at Easter, at the resurrection. It called me to get back on that train if I truly wanted to actually do something with all that. How many times does one need to make the trip to the altar or to a confessional? Don’t misunderstand please. I am not saying that these or other rituals or beliefs are not important for some people at some point in their lives and if that is where they stay, I am not wanting to drag them away from there.  It is not my job to drag anyone anywhere and it is not my job to try to convince those who do not believe in a Creator to believe in one even if it is one of their own making.

My “job”  (if I have one) is to allow the Creator to move through me, in me and as me.   I believe that that was what Jesus did and others have done before and after Jesus.   Before that could begin to happen, I had to desire that the infinite and divine power of love take hold of me, get my attention and make me fall into It. This Love has been blooming within me since then and will continue until the day that my essence will no longer occupy this corporal body.  My job isn’t to share all this but Love has to be expressed through all means that it can find an opening.  I can’t lock it up.  It expresses through me in my writing and in the everyday things that I do and think.

From my Christian upbringing I could hang out at the stable waiting for the birth or I could hang out at the tomb waiting for the resurrection. But why hang out there when I can hang out anywhere and carry and nurture that Christ essence, that Power, that Love within me? Why not awaken to the Power within? This Power does not intend to make us super human, worshiped by others, held on a pedestal with palms and adoration laid at our feet but rather this Power is to make us ordinary humans doing super things from an empowered heart.

If you can set aside your belief about whether or not there is a God or if you believe there is, if you can set aside your “version” of God for just a moment or two and take the time (if and only if you are drawn deep within to do so) open yourself to the LOVE that you can believe in, you may be surprised what will happen to you. The stone may roll away and you will arise from your “tome” of self pity or self loathing or self aggrandizement or whatever your belief about yourself, your situation, and your life and about the world and others, no matter what that may be. You may ask to become Love Itself and if you mean it, you will. This doesn’t mean your road will be without potholes, unfamiliar territories, wrong turns, bandits along the way, or unfairness. But Love will hold you, hold your hand, whisper words of encouragement, rock you to sleep when you need to rest, and set you back on the road. What have you got to lose for trying? Belief systems can impede or enhance your journey. It is your choice. It is a choice I have made to surrender to the Love within and I have not regretted it one moment.




All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.”  – Leo Tolstoy

There is a song that was recorded by Air Supply in the 1980s called “Making Love Out Of Nothing At All”.  It was one of my favorites and still is. Although I am sure this song was intended as a love song about one human being for another, the idea itself of making love out of nothing at all has always been, to me, about the Creator, the nothing at all out of which comes the everything. Love is the creative energy that wants to give birth to itself in many different forms.

I watched a program about a man who was wrongly convicted of murdering his wife. He had a very young son and a wonderful wife. Life was good for him. She was murdered and due to the investigation being done very haphazardly and years later wrongs being covered up, he was sentenced to life in prison and unable to make any headway in proving his innocence. Over the period of 25 years, he lost his wife, his son, and his freedom. He fared most of these losses well up until his son now grown decided to change his name to the last name of his aunt and uncle who raised him. Then it hit him so hard, he crumbled and cried out to God for help. Now, whether or not you believe in God per se maybe you believe that there is something greater than you or a host of angels or some other Force that has no name. This man whom I watched telling his story was at perfect peace even though he had been wrongly accused and convicted of murder and had lost everything dear to him. How could that be? He had an EXPERIENCE that completely changed him.

When this man cried out in anguish to God for help he was blinded by a light and filled with what he called love but I know that that was a love that was beyond words and you can’t “know it” until you experience it. Once you do, you know beyond any doubt that there is a power, a presence, that you have never really felt before so profoundly. I listened to him try to explain what had happened, I saw a peaceful, loving radiance on his face as he remembered his experience of what he called God. He said being free, being exonerated took second place to this experience he had had. A team came to his resue and worked to prove his innocence and to catch the real killer. A couple of more years after his experience he was found innocent and the guilty man was caught through DNA that had been ignored prior to this time. He was finally released and all he could do was to be thankful for everything. His son who had disowned him was eventually reunited with his father though things were awkward for his son for a while.

Making love out of nothing at all. It can come to you, some inexplicable experience, that is difficult to articulate but which has the ability to completely change your life forever. You know that first of all you are loved in a way you never experienced before and you may come to know that this powerful and perfect LOVE is what you are made of, it is who and what you are. It animates you. It breathes you. After that you can embrace all of life. It all becomes one. It’s all good in ways that escape the unawakened. You are still human but you are an actualized human and your blinders fall away. You question only the lies that you have taken on as truth about yourself and your world. You see with new eyes and yet nothing has changed.

Making love out of nothing at all is a truth that can penetrate the thickest walls and make magical things happen and appear as though it were nothing. All it needs is a heart which has been broken open and ready to receive it..


I have had the whole house open today. I am enjoying lots of sun and breezes and I am enjoying the outside while sitting in the inside. A little bird has been sitting out in the back yard singing his cute little head off most all day. The bird’s song reminds me of total, ecstatic and blissful joy and happiness. He just sings and sings and sings like there is nothing else in the world. Do you wish you could get so rapt in something so blissful like that, to be able to sustain it like that, to just open up and let it pour out like stardust sprinkled in the air? You can even when you are not aware that this is what you are doing. You miss it because you may judge it wrong or not perfect enough. You may think it is so mundane that you miss knowing the mystical and fantastic thing that it is. Or, you just take it for granted. The cure? Awareness. Do more watching of your thoughts, desires, feelings, actions (your very aliveness) without judgement and you will become more aware. Here’s to watching the golden stardust glittering and pouring from you, around you and through you.


Studies have shown that when several people are questioned about an accident or other event, each give a slightly different version of what happened.   Have you ever attended a movie with others or had a conversation with other people who went to see the same movie (or television program) that you saw and found that there were different things others saw that you missed or things that others interpreted differently from your interpretation?

As we experience something, we see or interpret it through the filters of our upbringing, our experiences or better yet, our interpretation of those experiences, socialization and much more.  For example, we have needs that may or may not be clear to us and these “needs” drive our choices and reactions.

I think that if you understand that we all have filters through which we experience and interpret life, life may still not make sense to you but you probably can live better knowing that your world is yours and other’s have their own when it comes to how we respond to and interpret what we “see”.   Perhaps you can lessen your angst and increase your tolerance level.