Something MORE was calling me to go on beyond all the beliefs I had. Something MORE was telling me that any religious faith was just one stop on the trip. It didn’t end at Easter, at the resurrection. It called me to get back on that train if I truly wanted to actually do something with all that. How many times does one need to make the trip to the altar or to a confessional? Don’t misunderstand please. I am not saying that these or other rituals or beliefs are not important for some people at some point in their lives and if that is where they stay, I am not wanting to drag them away from there. It is not my job to drag anyone anywhere and it is not my job to try to convince those who do not believe in a Creator to believe in one even if it is one of their own making.
My “job” (if I have one) is to allow the Creator to move through me, in me and as me. I believe that that was what Jesus did and others have done before and after Jesus. Before that could begin to happen, I had to desire that the infinite and divine power of love take hold of me, get my attention and make me fall into It. This Love has been blooming within me since then and will continue until the day that my essence will no longer occupy this corporal body. My job isn’t to share all this but Love has to be expressed through all means that it can find an opening. I can’t lock it up. It expresses through me in my writing and in the everyday things that I do and think.
From my Christian upbringing I could hang out at the stable waiting for the birth or I could hang out at the tomb waiting for the resurrection. But why hang out there when I can hang out anywhere and carry and nurture that Christ essence, that Power, that Love within me? Why not awaken to the Power within? This Power does not intend to make us super human, worshiped by others, held on a pedestal with palms and adoration laid at our feet but rather this Power is to make us ordinary humans doing super things from an empowered heart.
If you can set aside your belief about whether or not there is a God or if you believe there is, if you can set aside your “version” of God for just a moment or two and take the time (if and only if you are drawn deep within to do so) open yourself to the LOVE that you can believe in, you may be surprised what will happen to you. The stone may roll away and you will arise from your “tome” of self pity or self loathing or self aggrandizement or whatever your belief about yourself, your situation, and your life and about the world and others, no matter what that may be. You may ask to become Love Itself and if you mean it, you will. This doesn’t mean your road will be without potholes, unfamiliar territories, wrong turns, bandits along the way, or unfairness. But Love will hold you, hold your hand, whisper words of encouragement, rock you to sleep when you need to rest, and set you back on the road. What have you got to lose for trying? Belief systems can impede or enhance your journey. It is your choice. It is a choice I have made to surrender to the Love within and I have not regretted it one moment.