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LOVE TURNED INSIDE OUT

I watched the movie “Anna Karenina” the one made for TV in 1985 with Jacqueline Bisset and Christopher Reeve. (So as to not to confuse with other versions you may have seen.) The tragedy of that movie in a nut shell was that Anna allowed the thinking and attitude about women, especially the aristocrats, of that time period – 19th century Russia in this case- consume her with guilt about all her “sins” until it drove her crazy and she threw herself under the train. Her head was full of erroneous thoughts, lies she told herself that all began with, in my opinion, thoughts that she must be punished for breaking the moral code and all for having desired to be with a man who loved her rather than one who thought of her as a trophy wife that was there to make him look good. Many things could be said about this movie depending upon where you are in your understanding of things including your own beliefs about the shoulds and oughts in your path. We all could probably come up with some different ideas and beliefs and thoughts about this version of the story of Anna.

In the long run, I think the most important gem this story has to offer is how we get so caught up in self-condemnation that we literally kill ourselves. That’s love turned inside out or backwards. Life is nothing but choices that bring consequences we are pleased with and those with which we are not pleased. How many have driven themselves mad or to self medicating or self-destruction because they condemned themselves based upon what others believed or what they think was believed about them because of their choices or some other reason?

When you reach that place of not loving yourself for whatever reason, you immediately start on the path of self destruction. You may gamble too much, spend too much, eat too much, risk too much, drink too much, abuse drugs,work too much, drive yourself too much, do unhealthy things, smoke, break laws, and/or project onto others your own pain and anger and do harm to others. Any o.f these will make your life miserable and even kill you. I invite you to consider not being an Anna.  Don’t get it inside out and waste your life.

SWEET MYSTERY OF LIFE

SWEET MYSTERY OF LIFE

Way back in the land of long, long ago, when I was a mere future thought in my parent’s head there were movies called “talkies”. They were the first attempts at movie making that gone from the silent films to having sound tracks and dialog. Somewhere in the 1930s there were two actors Jeanette MacDonald and Nelson Eddy who made numerous films together. They ran these old films on TV when I was a child. I remember one film they made in which they sang a song “Ah Sweet Mystery of Life”

The lyrics: Jeanette MacDonald & Nelson Eddy – Ah Sweet Mystery Of Life

Ah, sweet mystery of life
At last I’ve found thee
Ah, I know at last the secret of it all
All the longing, seeking, striving, waiting, yearning

The burning hopes, the joy and idle tears that fall
For ’tis love and love alone, the world is seeking
And ’tis love and love alone that can repay
‘Tis the answer, ’tis the end and all of living

For it is love alone that rules for aye
Love and love alone, the world is seeking
For ’tis love and love alone that can repay
‘Tis the answer, ’tis the end and all of living
For it is love alone that rules for aye

Here in the film are two people who found each other and are “in” love. Love comes in many forms and comes to us and through us in many forms yet there is only one LOVE that comes from one Source and until we find that core, that endless well within us – until we find that Sweet Mystery of Life and surrender to It, become it, we cannot see the infinity of IT. Forms die, forms change, forms turn on us, forms leave but the Love Itself that, as the song says, is the end and all of living. This is what we all seek. How do you “find” It. Ah, now there’s the rub. Are you willing to do whatever it takes? Then you are on the right path. Follow that yellow brick road. More to come in this blog regarding the yellow brick road.

 

PLEASE SAVE ME!

I cannot find my way out of this castle. The moat all around is filled with crocodiles, the guards are many outside of my room. and there are so many rules I tend to break so I am found guilty. The more I am found guilty the more guards there are and the more crocodiles there are in the moat. I used to run free. i used to chase the butterflies. I used to laugh with joy just to hear the music of my voice. But one day I heard the voices outside of me telling me I was not worthy to laugh, nor to fly and chase the butterflies, and that my voice was only noise. Now I am a but a moan in the wound of my soul.

It was the voices of society. It was the raspy growls of the crowd. It was the rejection of yourself that followed all of that indoctrination that built the castle, the moat, the guards and the locks that serve as prison. Free yourself my daughter for what you believe is in your mind, the mind that has been poisoned by a shadow they call ME. It is lies and they never were a part of you. Let the lies go, find ME within your heart. If you will do that, the castle, the moat, the guards will vanish and you shall fly with the birds and flutter with butterflies. You will soar above the raspy growls of the crowd and rest in the palm of the Love that you are. Let your voice spring forth from within you and let it carry the message that this freedom brings,

HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE?

Back when my children were small we sold our house and moved out in the country in the house we were building, in January, in Georgia. Can you say freezing weather and wrong time to move? The house was a shell. The walls were up but I didn’t have a kitchen sink. To my husband’s credit, we did have one working bathroom and some heat but little else including no frig. We were pioneering in the middle of modern society. For a special added twist, the only water we had was from the well and you guessed it, the pump froze so for a while, we had no water. Did I mention it was freezing cold that time of year?

When the well was being dug, our money was a bit tight and it cost us a bunch for every thousand feet they had to dig to hit water. Five thousand feet later, they hit water. Yes, it was a pretty deep well and costly to us so you can imagine to have the pump freeze and we couldn’t access the water, was, let’s say, disappointing to say the very least. We quickly learned to insulate the well and enclose it in it’s own little house. It was a very trying time for all of us but we learned to get through it and I swore I would never move into an unfinished house again.

Since I was raised in the Baptist religion, I got a lot of Bible scriptures which now make a lot of sense to me because I can truly see them from a Spiritual view point unattached to any religious sect. I bring this up because I remember the story of Jesus and the woman at the well. She offered him a drink of water from the well and Jesus told her that there was water that she could have from a well that would never run dry. I now know where that well is and I know of the water that will never run dry. There is a “well” deep inside of each of us whether or not we are conscious of it and it is filled with nothing but endless Love. Whether you draw out a teaspoon, a cup, a bucket full it is complete and full of all there is. Once you learn how to dive into it, you will no longer need the teaspoon, the cup, or the bucket.

How deep is your love? How deep is your well? If you are loving only with your own effort, that is, you still give and receive love as a learned behavior, that is good; however, if you have a very deep well of love that you consciously know and feel and experience within you, this is even better and this well will never dry up unless you abandon it, freeze the pump, or shut off the outlet.

Keep priming your pump with your desire and by your letting go of all the walls you may use to protect yourself from your fears. Use prayer, meditation and any other practice that you find personally effective to keep that well open and flowing properly. Whatever you do, don’t die of spiritual thirst when the love and the well is so deep that it is endless.

THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE

You cannot grab a handful of wind but you can feel it and know that it is present. You cannot grab a handful of Spirit either but you can feel it. You can allow it to blow through you, around you, in you and through you. You can let it work its “magic”. All you have to do is to give your permission and offer your cooperation. That may mean giving up some of the hate you have; your stubbornness; your insistence upon being right and the other person wrong; your desire for revenge; your need to be adored; or you lack of the ability to know your own worth along side the wonder and worth of others. Can you do that? Need a little help with that? Learn to go inside and find the LOVE OF YOU LIFE. You can do this. You’ve got this. Go for it.

LOVE WANTED APPLY WITHIN

A baby is born and the little soul leaves a place of pure and absolute love, takes on a body, and comes into a strange world where he or she is either welcomed and loved or thrown to the lions.  There are many shades of welcomed and loved and many shades of thrown to the lions.  Welcomed and loved can be anything from over indulgence to smothering to controlling mode which is designed to mold the child into the parent’s own image or so the parent may life his or her own life vicariously through the child.   So, being loved and welcomed can have it’s darker side.  Being thrown to the lions can be total disinterest to neglect to horrendous abuse.  So what could possibly be the “good” side of  this you ask.  Unless the child makes the decision to break that chain and to find what he or she desperately wants to find or know about or to receive which is love, then I am afraid the life story of that child will have a long and very unsatisfactory outcome.

It is a well-documented fact that children tend to survive and thrive the best when there is at least one someone in their life who gives them love, affection, attention, and welcomes them.   Babies don’t know anything but love but soon forget once their socialization and induction into the human race begins and that is when pure love, absolute love, gets clouded over by the coats of social paint that is applied to .  There is one saving grace however, and that is that no matter how many coats of social paint is applied there remains at the seat of that soul, pure and absolute being – pure and absolute love.  One may go to his or her grave never to experience that LOVE within or they may experience it but have no idea where to go from there because they are still carrying the scars and paint that seem to add to the confusion.

People reach for other people, medications, drugs, alcohol, or some other soon to be addiction like spending or gambling or sex.  These may offer some relief and make the person feel good for a while but it never lasts.  They must go get another “fix” or add another one on top of the first one.  They could end up with many if nothing in their life changes.  Even a religion or philosophy can provide some relief and bring some joy to that believer.  Not all things people reach for to find that love, joy, and peace is bad or wrong in itself but if used for a substitute for the real thing or as an escape, it can only take one so far.

Though this is your personal journey from the crib to the grave, there are helpers who come to you in all forms and in all situations that you may use to guide you, to help you find what feels like is missing in your life.  Sometimes it takes different people, different situations, and different things at different stages of your coming out party.  So keep your eyes and heart open at all times because you never know what form in which help may appear.

The first order of business, whether or not you believe this is true, is to go within yourself.  Learn to pray without words.  Invite LOVE to make itself known.  Meditation is another form in which to find the inner door to your true self again which can lead you to that very love within that you seek.    There have been many books written on this subject and many workshops out there if you need help with this.   Some call this Love Within by names such as Holy Spirit, God, Allah, Great Spirit, The Universe, and so on.  Whatever you may call it, you will know when you have reconnected with IT and you will know when you are consciously awakened by IT.

Love is what you seek.  Love comes to you in many forms but until you experience this Presence within yourself you are likely to miss it in all its forms.  In fact, once you have experienced it, it will enhance all of your relationships, all of your experiences, and everything you think, believe, or do in your life.

Love is wanted.  Just apply within.